ELEUTHEROMANIA: An intense and irresistible desire for freedom
I was so excited that for the first time in my whole existense I had a chance to experience traveling into a completely different world, where you can be your self. I felt so excited that I was given a chance to explore things and at the same time find myself.
Before I left, I felt so lost, I felt I was in a doom of darkness where I can't find my way out. I lived a life full of what if's and doubts. I've never gave myself a chance to decide what is best for me or choose what will makes me happy. I felt so pathetic because it's been 23 years of my existence and until now I still don't know where to go.
To be lost and finding one self would be the most hardest part of life. Finding your life's purpose and meaning.
During my travel, when I was trying to find myself, I was asked by one stranger "what's your purpose in life?", from that time on I was thinking what I really want to do with my life. I suddenly realized that I want to discover my inner being, but I will be able to do this if I'm going to go outside my safe box and discover the beauty of world, the uniqueness of life and the challenge of faith.
It takes a lot of courage to find thy self, a lot of sacrifices and tough descisions to face but if I'll be forever scared what will happen? I'll be stuck in a world full of what if's and die unhappy.
Now, I decided that I'm going to face the new chapter of my life. Finding thy self. It will never be easy, but no one knows what future brings but I'm positive and I truly know that, at the end of my journey it will be worth the fight.
And
Just like this famous quote by Barbara De Angelis
No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.
Chase life, explore new things and always be brave to face challenges. Those are the words I keep telling myself. :)